SKIN DEEP? update!

1985
I was 5 years old and watching DAYS OF OUR LIVES at my Mamaw's house. "HOPE BRADY" was the prettiest girl I had ever seen.

1993

I was 13 years old and at the time-I thought nobody was prettier than CINDY CRAWFORD! I remember desperately wanting a beauty mark on my upper lip like she had! I had her hair and practiced putting my makeup on JUST LIKE HER!

1997


I was 17 and NOBODY was prettier than JENNIFER ANNISTON! Her hair was the envy of every girl between the age 15-45!














2002


I was glued to the tv every TUESDAY night watching THE GILMORE GIRLS! These girls had it all...they were smart, funny, and could eat anything they wanted and not gain a pound!

2008

I just think Katherine Heigl is IT! She is just a pure beauty and on top of the world these days!

Isnt it funny how we tell ourselves what BEAUTY is? We look at magazines and watch movies and television just looking for the NEXT BIG STYLE! We wait for HOLLYWOOD to tell us what being beautiful is. We learn that being skinny is EVERYTHING! We know that wearing name brand is THE ONLY way-

As most of you know, I am a huge fan of celebrities in general. WHen I was just a little girl, my aunt would buy the "tabloids" as they are called now-and I would sit and look through each page just admiring all the beautiful people and their glamorous clothing and fantastic hair! I would practice putting my make up on and fixing my hair in the latest styles! I got pretty good at it-if I do say so myself! I even went as far as going to beauty school to become a PROFESSIONAL at what I loved best!

What I have learned as I have gotten older is that you can invest all the time and money you want on the outside-but if you don't take care of the inside....bueaty is just not realistic.

I never struggled with low self esteem as a teenager...

Low self esteem reared its ugly head once I started having babies. I no longer have a reason to dress up, or put make up on, or even shower for that matter. I have grown up putting so much into who I was on the outside appearance that now that I am in a place in life that it doesnt matter-I am lost.

As cliche as it is-I am learning that in this point in life I need to work from the inside out...I need to start fresh!I need to to reinvent my definition of what it means to be beautiful-not only for myself-but for my Cassity!

I want her to have goals and fulfill them! I want her to seek God's will for her life and strive for it each day! I want her to be a good friend and kind to others. I want her to try her best and enjoy her own life without feeling like she has to be like someone else! I want her to be confident in WHO SHE IS even if its not our society's ideal!

I also want all of these things for myself and know If I want Cassity to be all these things...it has to start with me!

Pretty is-as pretty does.

UPDATE!

check out this site...

soo cool!

http://www.campaignforrealbeauty.com/home.asp

sweet moses.

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then watch this:
i cant handle how funny i think this is!

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malfunction junction what's your function...

so my laptop dropped dead last wednesday and since then i have been without a computer.

every night adam brings home his computer and i am itching to get online and check out all my sites that i usually check every hour on the hour....

WE THINK my computer will be fixed by tomorrow...

this girl can only hope!

HERE's to a computer THAT WORKS!

in other news...

Jared pooped in his crib monday morning...i was hit in the face with a STRONG odor as i walked into get him up...
these things NEVER happen when Adam is home. NEVER! so there i was holding jared ever so carefully under his arms...and as far away from me as possible.

this kid, you guys. KILLIN ME!
but soooooo cute! really. SOOOOOO CUTE!

Cass has kept me on my toes the last few days...
a couple highlights:

1. she told me that her boyfriend carter was going to take her on a date when she gets older...
they are going to go pick flowers and then to applebees.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2. she is going to a friend's bday party saturday-she informed i could just drop her off and drive off. she says she doesnt need me to walk her in.........................
(maybe i should also drop her off a couple blocks away so she isnt seen with me!?!?!)


here are some randoms:
1. the office...april 10 YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
2. a new season of LITTLE PEOPLE BIG WORLD starts soon....matt roloff going to court for a DUI can you imagine? riviting! MY Fav!!
3. the oscars are also coming up...i dont really care about the awards as much as i do how everyone wears the hair. im not going to lie.
4.brittany spears dad----a true higglytown hero! (a little nick jr shout out) thank goodness someone in that girls life has stepped up and are TRYING to help her! while they are at it-maybe they will give her a good bath !
5.i wonder what the guy on blue's clues does for fun? does he talk to his friends like that? does he say the occassional cuss word? what is his favortie tv show? i bet it's LITTLE PEOPLE BIG WORLD like mine is!
6. does anyone else think that handy manny and kelly like each other?
7.baseball season is starting soon...i never get a break..
8. kelvin sampson is just a creep!
9. mccain or obama? eek!
10. starbucks venti dulce cinnamin latte-a slice of heaven.

just me and my daddy...

Adam took Cass on the very first OF MANY daddy daughter dates-tonight was special because he had the chance to take her to her FIRST DANCE! I instructed him to make sure to be a gentleman-open her doors, take her coat, pull her chair out ect--and to point out to her what he was doing so that we build up a high expectation for someday.......when she starts to date.
EEK!

If Cassity finds HALF the man her Daddy is....I will be thrilled!

Also.

Jared threw me a curve ball tonight and actually posed for a picture..

I personally think its his VALENTINES gift to me....

pics

Yes. Yes I did cut Cassitys hair completely off. I call it THE KATIE HOLMES HAIRCUT. If you don't know who she is-first, come out of the cave you live in...and then google her. ALso here is a pic of my attempting math homework...Cassity likes to do her "homework" too....

......now for those of you who think i dont share enough pics of jared...may i reveal just a taste of why that is....

below are 4 of almost 30 pics that i TRIED to take of him....the kid HATES the camera. I can NOT get him to even look at me...much less smile. As cute of a kid as he is...his days as a GAP KID look slim...

he is my little squirel....

so there.

until next time folks.

PRAISE GOD FROM WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW!

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where is the fire?

this may not come to a suprise to any of you...but lately it has occured to me that i have no self discipline--


this is NOT a poor poor pitiful me post-its more like a "AH HA!" moment for me:

here are some things i would like see change in my life...

i would like to spend a certain amount of my day with God...
EVERYDAY!

i would like to run/walk/excersize for AT LEAST 30 minutes EVERDAY!

I have never had a daily routine.
especially since my kids have been born...

I DONT KNOW WHERE TO EVEN BEGIN...to those of you who DO have a daily routine it probably seems so simple...but for me, if it takes any kind of effort...i tend to avoid it!
it's just my nautre.

i tend to admire people from afar.. who get up at 5am and have their quiet time with God and then run a mile all before 7am-when they get their kids up and start that part of their day...

AREN't THEY TIRED? I AM! and I dont do anything!



I have been looking at Nike running shoes all morning...thinking maybe i will start running every morning. NOTE: I HAVE NEVER RAN FOR EXCERSIZE A DAY IN MY LIFE...I dont know what I am thinking...but something has got to change with me...
and maybe running will be a good way to start.

Granted, the first morning I run I wont make it past the neighbor's mailbox without laying down in the road and wanting to die. Never the less...maybe by the end of next month I will be able to run from my house to the end of the street!?!?

I have also decided that I could have my time with God during my running time because GOD KNOWS I WILL NEED IT! I will get my ipod set to my favorite worship songs and try to kill to birds with one stone...at least for now....

Iwill keep you posted.

Here is to a life of structure...and lower cholesterol.

dreamin..

with jared's new talent of climbing out of his bed..and it seeming more and more clear that we will be in this house for longer than we would like...

i have been doing some brainstorming on the kid's rooms and how to transistion them from baby rooms to toddler/kid rooms...

here is my idea.
in college everyone use to LOFT their beds to make more room for other things in the dorm...

i want to do this in my kid's rooms.

this is the loft i would like to build:

In theory, I would put toys and books under the bed where the futon is...and as they get older-possibly a desk for homework...ect. I think it would also be neat to hang some kind of curtain under the bed like a fort....
I have dreams of when the kids get older and have friends over that they could have them sign their beds....kids did that in college and i just thought that it was awesome! WHAT A NEAT KEEPSAKE FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD?? Maybe not!?

I am just dreamin....

I would want tp paint Cassity's white and leave Jared's as shown.

You can order loft kits:
http://www.collegebedlofts.com/dorm_xxl.html

So it can't be TOOOO hard to put together!?

I would like to get Jared this bedding:

and for Cassity:

just another MELLOW monday!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...
do you hear that? me neither! IT's QUIET!!!

Mondays are my favorite! A friend of mine and I trade babysitting services once a week. She watches my kids ALL DAY on Mondays and I watch her kids ALL DAY on Wednesdays! I come home from dropping the kids off and make coffee and turn on the Racheal Ray show! It's just a small peice of Heaven!

Adam and I had a fun time this weekend with the people at our church! Saturday morning we helped paint the lobby of the church with some other people from the church..and then last night we had the chance to watch the Super Bowl on a HUUUUUUUUGE screen--with some other young couples from the church! Adam slobbered all over himself at the size of this tv--he and I joked how if we had a tv that size we would be watching BLUES CLUES instead of sports or movies we wanted to watch! AH THE JOYS OF HAVING SMALL CHILDREN!

So the Giants won the superbowl! Here is the deal. I am a colt's fan. Adam is a bear's fan. People around here HATE the Patriots. Don't tell anyone...but I think TOM BRADY is cute. So I kinda was for the Patriots for that reason...but I didnt tell anyone! I also choose my NCAA tournament bracketts by if I like the team's colors....YES I AM THAT GIRL!

I was a cheerleader in high school so mainly my ONLY concern for a game was if my hair looked cute and if I had shaved my legs...oh! and also if I was tan enough.

ho hum.

oh! and also. I want this shirt.

toothless wonder.

So it is 3:30AM and here I am. WIDE EYED AND BUSHY TAILED! I think I have a sinus infection...I am just not feeling well..

A few updates that I have to report!

Cass was over at a friend's house when she took a tumble and hit her mouth, she cut up her gums pretty badly and also knocked a tooth loose.
2 weeks later....

We went for xrays at the Dentist's and her tooth had shifted toward the back so he was trying to move it back into place when.......BAM! He pulled her tooth right out! The tooth fairy came and brought her 50 cents....she thinks she is rich!

The dentist will call us at some point this week to talk to us about a baby denture for that tooth...since she just turned 4...she is still a little ways to losing it naturally...and we want to make sure her teeth dont try to move into that space!

In other news, Mr Jared has learned to climb out of his crib.

AND.......he has gotten good at it! It seems like he gets faster and faster everytime...

A TODDLER BED IS OUR FUTURE!

My babies are growing up.