booo

is it me or do i look like PINKY DINKY DOO's MOM?

MUG SHOT

straight hair? yes please!

i dont ask for much.
feel free to judge me all you want...
go ahead and GASP at the cost....
I
DONT
CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this will be in my stocking from Santa...
http://www.ghdhair.com/go/shop-us/product_info.php?cPath=21&products_id=28

as you can imagine--adam is horrified by this. his accountant mind can not grasp it...
maybe you can't either...

this thing was hand crafted by Jesus himself--it works wonders that can not be fathomed--

i am licensed in this industry-and i know what is THE BEST...
(even though i use suave shampoo-which by the way is an example of me taking one for the team and not spening $$$ on "the real stuff"-hopefully my hair will forgive me someday)

and it WILL be mine...
i just need to take out a small home loan first...

go ahead...pick your jaw up off the floor...
i still want it.
so there.

AU almuni night at the Pumpkin Farm

First of all-do you guys notice how "grainey" these pics are?
They were taken with our new camera--we are taking it back -YET AGAIN! im so frustrated i could spit. Anyone have any camera suggestions? what brand do you like ect?
We had a good time at the Pumkin Farm-Jess and Travis and Aden were there! We got there late so it was too dark to do alot of the stuff-but I think the kids liked just plain getting out of our house for a little while!

In other news...
This is what I found Jared doing last night after dinner...

make an offer!

i am serious when i say that i could sale everything in our house at a yard sale. i feel like all we have is junk. i am not someone who prides herself in the things she has...i buy my clothes at walmart for goodness sakes-i just want my house to be put together-instead of junked up and cluttered. i saw on oprah once that the way you keep your house is a direct reflection of what is going on in your head...its like opeing the door to your mind...
this is so true in my house...my mind is cluttered-and so is my house...and my car for that matter.
ugh.
i started yesterday getting my butt in gear-our house is starting to have a rhyme and a reason...and for what its worth-my head feels clear this morning...
go figure.
its all junk-but its organized junk..and it will have to do until i win the lottery or wake up to ty pennington yelling "GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD MORNING GALEMA FAMILY!"
hmmmm.
i'll keep ya posted!

my little baby girly

i just love this pic. I will post one of jared soon...this one was just handy...

such a sweet girl i have!

backbone wanted!

I have been struggling this week on the expectations that I put on others. I often wonder why people don't think the way I think. I mean I am pretty logical right?

I can not control how people act or treat me or my kids-I thought it would be one way-but turns out being the other. As a people pleaser-I want everyone to like me-Adam-Cassity and Jared. I crave approval from others...when I am angry I end up covering it up and putting on a FAKE FACE-when really I just want to give them a peice of my mind.

Adam makes a good point-"IF YOU DONT WANT TO DO SOMETHING SAY NO!" or "IF you dont like how you are treated...STAND UP FOR YOURSELF!" ... Instead I do something I dont want to do and just get angry and mean and bitter. If I told someone no-what would happen? I can honestly say I have no idea. I fear making someone mad at me. If I stood up for myself-what would happen? Again, I dont know...I let the world plow tucks over me on a dailey basis.

I am a firm believer in WHAT YOU FEAR-YOU CREATE...I know this is true in my life...
I have a certain situation in my life where I feel i have done EVERYTHING i can do to win approval and love for not only me but Adam and the Kids-and we are constantly put on the back burner. What I fear (rejection) I have created by being a big wuss and push over..I need to stand up for myself and for my kids...THIS IS NOT OK!! YOu can neglect me all day long-cause i bring it on myself-but dont you DARE treat my kids second best!

pray for my backbone-and that I am able to face my fears -if not for me-but for my kids. this is NOT a trait I want them to have...

"I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody." ~ Bill Cosby

the power of TEN

Dear ME at 17-
I just want you to know that you are not FAT -you are not UGLY and you certainly aren't stupid! Boys are not the most important thing in the world-and being a a varsity cheerleader or making homecoming court will not get you a job someday-
Take time to listen to God and open your heart to what HE says..YOU are good enough! You are a good friend, you DO NOT have to always please others for their approval. Take time to do something for yourself-pay attention to detail and always try your best.
Serve in someway at church-going on Sundays isnt enough, use your talents to HIS glory.
Go to Mamaw's more...MEMORIZE your surroundings, make the most of your hometown. Pick up your room more-try to make a habit of putting your clothes away. Make a habit of excersizing..READ more books. DONT worry about what others think of you-as much as most people annoy you-remeber that people are more important than THINGS-always. Break up with your boyfriend, dont invest your time and life into him-he IS NOT the one. YOU will meet the ONE later...
Enjoy time with your friends and family-pray more--
Take COLLEGE more seriously...go outside more-sing LOUDER! take risks..be a leader..i know its scary!
God has specific plans for you and they will fall into place in HIS time-follow his word-accept HIS call--practice being a good wife and mom--you will need those skills sooner than later!

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Just a little note I wish I could have told myself ten years ago-thought i would share...

christmas card.

here is a pic my friend Jenni took of us at Anderson University's homecoming this past weekend...we are using it as our christmas cards this year so act suprised.

...i was too excited to wait that long. i am a proud momma.

well...just wanted to share that cassity has announced
SHE IS NEVER TALKING TO ME AGAIN.


good luck with that.

rambling.

my life is a constant episode of candid camera. or maybe its just me? there are moments every single day where i am looking for someone to jump out and say "SMILE! YOUR ON CANDID CAMERA!"

I start a new class tomorrow CHURCH GROWTH...should be interesting..i know looking at the syllabus that the final is going to kick my butt...i need to get ontop of interviewing local pastors..my professor lives in Lexington-he is over the CHURCH OF GOD for the state of KY..so guess who is going to be the class teacher's pet...ME ME ME!! i want him to remember me just incase a childrens pastor posistion comes up...

Cassity is going to be a witch for halloween-my mom got her the outfit at cracker barrell...she tried it on tonight before she went to bed...you could tell she was impressed with herself...she told me.. "mom i dont want to be a mean witch-i want to be a pretty witch" bless her heart. people get really bent out of shape about halloween-they say its evil and "OF THE DEVIL" i see it as it is-a time for kids to play dress up and get candy-thats all...
so for all you out there who are judging me for letting cass be a witch --i say GET OVER YOURSELF!
jared is going to be a dinasour...that kid is so cute...he is a handful and drives me crazy but ---his face...OH HIS LITTLE FACE! so cute...i dont know what i would do without him...or cassity!

WE went to a family reunion tonight-we left before deserts....dont you think cassity didnt talk about it all the way home....I WANT CAKE MOMMY...I DIDNT GET ANY CAKE....I LOVE CAKE bla bla bla...

well also-if any of you care...UK BEAT LSU (ranked #1) --if you know anything about UK you know they have struggled in the football dept for sometime.....this is a big news and i am sure lexington is rockin tonight!
BY THE WAY...I am taking the kids down at the end of this week to visit family and do the MSU HOMECOMIGN THING!! there is a parade every year-cass loves it! and i love taking her! i want my kids to know where i came from and experience some of things i did growing up! its pretty important to me...

anyways.
C... A... T.... S.... CATS! CATS! CATS!

luckiest.

I have been told I have mamaw's hands...Cassity has my hands...what an honor to have such a trait. Mamaw Tiny was blind..she sat in the corner most times pulling at her bangs-26 years that I have been alive...I have never seen her sit anywhere else...she also would write things in the air with her finger....another trait she has passed on..through my dad and now me. Mamaw had this HUGE dry skin patch top of her foot all of my life, the last time I saw her (JULY) it was gone...I asked her what she did to make it go away-and she said she just finally grew out of it...
...She ate onions like apples. SHe had goute. SHe loved young and restless and Maury. She had a police scanner and always had it turned up full blast-she was constantly cold-it was the dead of summer-and would be wrapped up in a blanket. She never would put her purse down..it was always right under her arm--she had 11 grandkids and treated us all the very same-she held us all the same and she took care of us all the same...there was never any difference shown, sometimes all 11 of us would be at her house playing...she never complained. After I had Cassity-everytime I would come in to town -she would say "you are such a pretty little mommy" -she was blind... and probably had no clue what I looked like-ever..but boy did I crave her telling me that...it was so encouraging to have her approval. Adam and I got married the day after her and papaw's 50 year wedding anniversary..Papaw died just 2 weeks before.. SHe outlived her parents, her siblings, a child, and a grandchild and by the end, was ready to go-I pray that when it is my time, that I can look back and know my life was full and be ready to be "home"....My Mamaw's reward is in Heaven...She was blind...but now she can see!